Knowledge is addictive.
You can become so obsessed with learning about something, digging deeper into history and context.
But soon you can’t stop. The thirst growing greater, your brain expanding all the time. The feeling of your mind muscles flexing, developing, thriving.
But when the subject gets dark, like a tunnel you go further in, the blackness pulling you through. Still you are addicted, digging frantically for an answer you will probably never find.
All the knowledge in the world is available with the Internet. If they take that shit away, I will lose my Yin.